Just that, I am leaving Microsoft...

With the current (or barely past, depending how you look at it) crisis, and with claims that some people had actually forwcasted it long time ago, I started looking at was out there... I stumbled upon the the open your eyes DVDs ...

I have to confess that the first few videos about the financial system did get my attention... Is the fractional reserve system a good one? was the first US Dollars fiat money a better one?

As I kept watching these conspıracy theory DVDs though, I got a lot more skeptical very quickly... As I believe in open mindedness, I went on watching (though skipping many videos, and just watching the first moments of many). I saw in most of the first ones, although not something believable, a glımpse of some form of respectable opinion, mixed in the middle of a flood of unfounded and totally unbelievable pseudo-facts. Most of them had A perspective that centered around the judeochristian culture, but that is something one gets used to in the current world... Until I started hitting the juicy stuff...

One of those videos has the title of "the light behind masonary" where a guy called "Bill Schnoebelen" explain masonary (supposedly he was a mason of very high degrees). From the start, he tries to make masonary look like a satanic worship (for all I know it could be), so I watch (I have been intrigued by masonic practice for years now), until he starts saying things that went contrary to things I know very well. He said the muslims had an efficient way to convert souls, and that it was putting a simitar above somebody's head, then ask him to convert, and if he said no, cut his head... he then went into explaining why Islam has the moon as a symbol, and said that the god of islam, Allah (by the way, Allah is Arabic for "The God" as it is very simply using the article "al" in front of the word "ilah" wich means god), was not God. "Allah was the moon, a rock" he exclaimed!

It is actually interesting that a guy that thinks he has both a high intellect and first hand knowledge can be so cavalier... It is even more interesting that he tries very hard to make it "judeochristians" against "mahometans"... The problem is that the only relation between islam and the moon is the calendar. Islam uses a lunar calendar. Well, judaism uses a mixed solar and lunar calendar. does that make the god of the bible (the judeochristian god) an offspring of a star and a rock ?

Actually, the most interesting aspect of the whole series of videos, is that it has actually given me a much more positive impression of the masons, and more astonishingly, of the illuminati (if they actually exist)... In almost all of the videos, they are globalists, thriving to achieve global world government! How can this be the evil plan ? more balance in the world, with less priviledge to the west? I would call that great good, or alternatively, morality... These are supposed to be a few evil people, conspiring to achieve what I would call a more just world!!! and what is the downside? they are not preaching christianity the way he wants them to!!!

Off course I don't give much credit to any of that stuff, but my only worry about masons has always been that they seem to be a secret society of the powerful, giving them more opportunity to network and be even more powerful... If all they're doing is trying to make the world a more just place, then long live conspiracy! and long live masonary!

A couple of years back, I was having a discussion about art and science at a bar with a friend, and it occured to me that it is an impossible question:

1. Science is the voice of the brain. Observing and absorbing the facts, analyzing them, identifying patterns, infering possibilities and cold bloodedly checking if those possibilities hold. It is essential in understanding the world. without it, one goes from random action to the next without recognizing what one is doing. there can be no sense of purpose...

2. Art is the voice of emotions, the voice of the heart. It is about observing the world and capturing the emotions that things and beings sucitate in one self. It is essential both in understanding oneself and in connecting with objects and beings, with people and with ideas. without it, there can be no enjoyment and no passion...

Do I prefer my brain or my heart? can anybody operate without equally relying on both?

I would like to thank all those that have had the patience to look for what I have to say for so long... I said a few days, well it took over a month, and what I will say is only a fraction of what, only a month ago, I though I could say as only personal things are my own decision...

I already warned that anything professional would be on my msdn blog, and it won't be still many days/weeks that I can speak about anything happening on the platform or  server for process stuff...

There are yet big news on the personal side:

There are encounters that change the way we think about life. there are encounters that even change our lives. Yet there aren't so many encounters that change both our life and our perception about life... encounters that one feels in the depth of his guts that nothing will ever be the same...

As much as I used to love writing, I have not felt I needed to say anything except what I whispered into her ears... As much as I always was available for my friends, I only cared about what she felt...

To cut a long story short, I am feeling legendary love, and think (when my ego is not under control)  that we (see next paragraph) are part of the circle of Cleopatra and Antonio, Antar and Abla,, Qais and Leila,  Romeo and Juliet.... etc. Time evolves, and we don't need a drama to boost our feelings...

I never felt this way, although I had extremely strong feeling for friends (with or w/o benefits) before and still do. I had teenage love(s) (I won't specify numbers, sorry), and even simulacres of the ideal love. I would die anyday to preserve one of my real close friend's life. I do have the most amazing kind of love, one that can never be changed or topped : My love for Arwa, the most intelligent and beautiful girl in the world, my daughter. But I still forgot my friends since I met her. I would not only die for her, I litterally can't live a day without her...

In three (extensible) words, I love Nadia, and she is my wife.

That's all I can say for now.

I have disappeared for a while, both on the blog and physically with my friends... I have a few surprises for everyone... keep watching in the next few days.

New girlfriend, new position, visiting new countries, new car, new phone, new style... All in the last few weeks !

Off course all the old rhythm of change and travel is still there...

Who said last year was incredible ?